It’s amazing how finding myself in a new relationship can make me wonder if I can or can’t do something. After how many dates should I tell the person I miss him? And at what point do I tip-off that I want to be committed?
Kim and I lost contact three years go. And now we’re really getting to know more about each other. I can say we are at the romantic level, as per my own assessment. And I’m trying my best to relearn all the things that were once taken for granted in my previous relationship in this new and fresh one.
I know Kim likes me. He sends me a message every morning. I feel like I am the first though he has in the morning. He checks up on me randomly just to see how I am doing, even when I am asleep, and won’t be able to reply. He asks me about my day, and then he actually listens. He will always have something in mind to comment about my day, and I like it. It makes me feel like he really cares, and is into me (ang ganda ko na friend, haba na ng hair ko.) He protects me, or at the very best, he tries. He will always consider if I’ll benefit from something even he won’t. This man really cares for me better than he cares for himself.
Now, I find it hard to replicate. I am not the showiest person in the world, but I’m trying. I wanted to give more than what he can give.
We then came to the decision to move in, and it felt like we’re trying to catch up with the last three years that we’re apart. At first, I saw it as something that happened before, like history is repeating itself. I lived together with my previous partner. It was happy at first, and but it ended. It was a rush, and I gave up everything, my space, privacy, and peace. But this time with Kim, I know it’ll be different. He is different, special, kind, and I like him. This may be rushing as well, but we can make it work. BTW, we plan to move together before the month of May ends.
“ILY” is prolyl the most famous and used set of words in the English language. These words are also the hardest ones for some to day. I fear to say it because of rejection; also, I might have the lack of understanding of the importance of the phrase. I am saving my ILY for Kim. I like to burst it at the right time.
I hope my first entry for oversharing series serves you well.